7 Years ago I saw a video of a Butoh dancer Atsushi Takenouchi who travelled the world dancing in extreme environments and conditions. I recognized the growth potential in this act and was inspired by this dancers deep passion for both dance and the extremities of life and death. In one of the photographs of his travels I saw him dancing half naked in Auschwitz Concentration Camp in Poland. This moved me so deeply that I set out towards Poland within a week to dance at Auschwitz. At the time I was dating a Polish girl who was actually from a nearby city to Auschwitz, Częstochowa. I only had 48-hours to visit before I had to fly to India via Turkey. I ended up going out and realizing the amazing beauty of Polish Vodka and abhorrent next day of the Polish hangover. So I never made it there. I know, hilarious. Life is sometimes like this.
More recently I have been training in Systemic Ritual which works a lot with collective trauma fields.
The book 'Tears Of The Ancestors' By my teacher Daan Van Kampenhout offers a first chapter about being in Auschwitz on a retreat bearing witness to the darkness of the place in service of healing and expanding awareness. Daan claims that for him being there brought him to a feeling of such great space within, that he had never experienced with any spiritual practice he had encountered. This was inspiration enough for me to get kicked into action again.
Whilst in an Osho Presence of Heart retreat in Denmark I read this chapter about Auschwitz and being that I had 5 days free after the retreat and my car with me, I decided to use the retreat to prepare my soul for being in Auschwitz. On making this decision, I had several (what could be described as) past life memories rise up for healing around being in Auschwitz. The details of which I will not share here, it is still very fresh and needs space to shift privately. Half the retreat I spent stuck frozen behind a steel door that was impossible to open. Not an easy experience. One truth that was coming through strongly in this preparation period was that I am not alone, that this journey does not have to be taken alone. This was when I decided to put a message out to my mailing list and create a facebook event and BLOG, so we all journey there together.
Whilst I am in this journey, this blog is my lifeline, here I will share most of what happens for me. Feeling, impressions, experiences, poems? and whatever else rises up out of this experience. I would really appreciate people reading my posts and leaving comments in response, even opening conversations with me, so it feels like I have a circle of support within this journey and that we are all connecting to this experience in some way. May this movement we are partaking in together bring healing and peace to us and our ancestors. For these collective traumas touched a whole generation of all nations and religions, that we are all connected to and can learn from. In some way we are all Jewish, we are all Nazi and we are all everything in between.
With Love and Blessings